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you

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god, i feel like such a fucking fool. how many nights am i going to be stuck awake just thinking about this bullshit?

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I never want to fall in love again. Ever.

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i feel like i have nobody to talk to

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falling in love with someone is the scariest thing in the universe.

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i’m hitting the point where i’m beginning to feel numb. i try to do everything i can to make people happy and go out of my way to help and be there for them. at the end of the day, i feel alone and so stupid.

it’s apparent now that unless i’m doing something to benefit someone, i’m just a nuisance or bothering someone. or interrupting someone. people say whatever they want to me knowing i’m passive and don’t want to argue and it makes me so sad.

i just want to be a priority or even just a second thought for once. im growing tired of being on everyone’s back burner. i was so optimistic for the longest time even after being disrespected and pushed aside over and over. i want someone to ask me how my fucking day was for once. or ask me “how can i help make you feel better?” or for someone to atleast just not fucking forget about me.

I just want to feel like an actual human and not a burden

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lately i wake up and just cant wait to go back to sleep again.

i hate being awake because it means i’m thinking.

i don’t want to think anymore.

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